When Strangers Do NOT Want You In the Country…

Back-post I decided to make public:

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Native Americans, specifically Apache Warriors, Public Domain Image, pbclipart.org

Friday as I walk through Garage gate to walk to the Office, & a stranger repetitively screams “F*CK THE NATIVE AMERICANS! F*CK THE NATIVE AMERICANS & ALL THE OTHER OUTSIDERS!!”

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When You’re Told To Go Back To “Your” Country – Trump’s Immigrations Crackdown

Not to be overly “political, ” but here’s updated back-post I decided to share, in reference to this short clip:

The Missing- The Consequences of Trump’s Immigration Crackdown:

Heartbreaking. Friends, family, neighbors that contribute a lot to communities, who are NOT [druggie, violent, etc] criminals are being deported thanks to Trump Supporters [some, who support this]. I grew up with that same fear & xenophobia towards me.

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The Night We Escaped My Friends’ Dad Violence

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These are different friends who also lived through domestic violence, but sadly these friends were also there when I Witnessed My [other] Friend’s Mom Get Beaten for “Disrespecting” Husband. With a lot of discussion on the Stanford rape case, and sexual violence, I continue to share some things most of you don’t know about my life, including His Retaliation When I Rejected His Advances, in a series of blog posts on assault, domestic violence and abuse, in which I have been a witness of and even escaped from. Read more

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I Witnessed My Friend’s Mom Get Beaten for “Disrespecting” Husband

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As a kid, it was “normal” to see wives get beaten for disrespecting their husbands, even in front of a crowd.  With a lot of discussion on the Stanford rape case, and sexual violence, I continue to share some things most of you don’t know about my life, including His Retaliation When I Rejected His Advances, in a series of blog posts on assault, domestic violence and abuse, in which I have been a witness of and even escaped from. Read more

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His Retaliation When I Rejected His Advances

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With a lot of discussion on the Stanford rape case, and of sexual violence, I thought it’s time to share some things most of you don’t know about my life, in a series of blog posts on assault, domestic violence and abuse; NOT only physical but mental abuse, in which I have been a witness of and even escaped from.  Read more

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Music / Art / Creative Event closed off National Suicide Prevention Week!

(Sunday September 14, 2014)

It was an interesting and challenging experience, creating an event from scratch on a topic so controversial, a stigma and taboo.. Suicide Prevention.  I’ve never created such an event in this scale, from art, to poetry to music (and an almost comedy act), I am content that it was successful event, as it was in honor of a very close friend.

But it was not easy… not everyone was open to this idea.. I’ve felt a little humiliated, exposing a little bit of something personal to the public.. and some people were even offended by my idea of a suicide prevention event.  I never even mentioned to most people who have met my friend, what happened, and why she hasn’t been attending music/art events, karaoke, etc.  I wanted privacy for myself and others.

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Life Being “Ugly” & the Day I Could’ve Died Because of It

Most of us have felt ugly at some point of our lives, and sadly many of us still do.  TV, media, models digitally enhanced in magazines add pressures to individuals, to meet the criteria of standards defined and accepted in society. As an Asian American growing up in a primarily white community I had to get used to the stares.  Usually, it’s not the “You’re gorgeous” good stare, but the stare when Aliens set foot on earth and you lean in to ask, What are you??   But there is also racism within race– colored people, Asian, black, hispanic, preferring light skin over dark skin.  Here are some struggling with living in an “ugly” person , from bullying to the point I almost completely died from suffocation, to not attracting boys at all.

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New Health Care Reform – Affordable Care Act

I have had my own private health insurance for years and even have declined employer health insurances in the past, due to high premiums for the mediocre coverage.  This past year, however, I was on a employer’s plan for over a year.  But to my dismay, after getting off their health insurance a few weeks ago, I realized how “private” health insurance have changed significantly, and we, as U.S. Americans, are faced with completely new breed of health care reform laws, under the Affordable Care Act.  I would say it seems to have its advantages and disadvantages. 

I actually was going to risk it for the first time in my life, to go without health insurance, but the health reformed mentioned a penalty or fine if we do.  Though there are catastrophic “coverage,” to pay for the increasingly high premiums, waiting until a catastrophe happens to meet the extremely high deductibles ($6200+), sounds.. well catastrophic already. Well, I thought to take a moment to give some more information or survival tips in this post.

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Unintentional Relationship/Friendship Sabotage

One of the worse habits one can do is unintentionally sabotaging a relationship or friendship before it really begins, and I am guilty of that.  After being hurt many times or even once, it is easy for one to fall into distrust, or be afraid to get hurt again.. so we sometimes do or say things that do more harm than good, thus driving or warding people off before giving them a chance. Read more

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Loneliness II

Loneliness is when you want to love someone but they refuse to love you back. Loneliness is thinking of others first, but chosen last, thought of last, or not being thought of at all.  Loneliness is losing important people permanently, who treated you well, and having to say your last goodbyes at their burial. Loneliness is being given insensitivities and make mockery of these situations by those who were supposed your closest.  Loneliness is trusting so many, but having that trust broken.  Loneliness is longing for acceptance from others, needing others to be there and their support, but instead avoided.  Loneliness is realizing after all this, and the feeling of isolation, neglect, and abandonment, that for once, for the first time, you’re not OK with being alone in your apartment.

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